And He Said "Go"

From the moment God opened my eyes to Swaziland, I never hesitated to say yes to His call to go there. I've never feared for my health or safety. I know that if God wants me there, He will provide the means for me to get there and bring me back safely. I also know that He will close doors if for some reason He doesn't want me to go. But for now, I go!

After my parents realized that I was serious about my trip to Swaziland, they encouraged me to pray and make sure it was actually God calling me there and not just an idea I had stuck in my head. They reminded me that while responding to God's call is good, He also wants us to use wisdom. I assured them that it was God calling me to Swaziland, but our conversation lingered in my head that evening.

That night, God spoke VERY clearly to me.

At the time (and even now), I really loved the song "Revalation Song". The word "worthy" was really standing out to me from the song, so I was looking up verses that had "worthy" in them. While this song and God's worthiness were the focus of my quiet time that night, God still wanted to emphasize His call for me to go to Swaziland and put to rest any concerns that had been brought up earlier that day. In my search for verses that spoke on worthiness, He gave me these words from Matthew 10:

"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; 38and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.

40"He who receives you receives me, and he who receives me receives the one who sent me. 41Anyone who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will receive a prophet's reward, and anyone who receives a righteous man because he is a righteous man will receive a righteous man's reward. 42And if anyone gives even a cup of cold water to one of these little ones because he is my disciple, I tell you the truth, he will certainly not lose his reward."

This passage blew me away! It hardly even mentioned the word "worthy", but God clearly led me to it for a reason. "Love and honor your parents", He told me, "but not more than Me. If you want to be worthy of Me, you take up your cross and follow Me. And yes, Margo, you could lose your life (or maybe just forego the life you have at home), but remember it's for Me. Serve the little ones."

I've never had Jesus speak to me so clearly and with such a specific purpose through His word. What a blessing for him to reaffirm me in this way. My answer to Him, of course: I will go!